It seems all so clear, like it was only a few days ago ” push, take a deep breath, rest, now push again” Oh, wow, that feeling… I feel her coming.. and THEN… here she is, my first and only natural born child. My baby girl. :)

I waited so long to have her, I really wanted to have her many years earlier, but God wasn’t ready to let me have her then. Now was the time. So I rejoiced like any new mom. I was on cloud 9, I was in heaven, I was in awe. The gift of bringing a child into the world what a miracle it is, AND I got to do IT, wow, Just look at her. I couldn’t stop..I didn’t sleep at all that first night in the hospital. I couldn’t take my eyes off of her.

Then the years just kept on ticking by, one after the other. I kept on telling her to stop having her birthday’s because I knew that someday she would grow up and go away. Of course, I was not serious with her, but deep inside my self I sure was. I knew each year was coming closer and closer to the time she would some day grow up and fly out of the nest.

It might sound negative, but really, it’s not, we have had so many wonderful years together and I am a blessed Mom. I have been able to spend every day with my daughter teaching her the things that I believe she will need to be a godly woman and a successful wife and mother some day. I was blessed to be able to stay at home with her and invest my time into her life. We are very close and I wouldn’t change a thing.

As I opened up my JESUS CALLING  today I know that it was God speaking directly to me and I know that there are no coincidences with Him. This is what it said:

ENTRUST YOUR LOVED ONES TO ME; release them into My protective care. They are much safer with Me than in your clinging hands. If you let a loved one become an idol in your heart, you endanger that one-as well as yourself. Remember the extreme measures I used with Abraham and Isaac. I took Isaac to the very point of death to free Abraham from son worship. Both Abraham and Isaac suffered terribly because of the father’s undisciplined emotions. I detest idolatry, even in the form of parental love.

When you release loved ones to Me, you are free to cling to My hand. As you entrust others into My care, I am free to shower blessings on them. My Presence will go with them whenever they go, and I will give them rest. This same Presence stays with you, as you relax and place your trust in Me. Watch to see what I will do.

Genesis 22:9-12; Ephesians 3:20; Exodus 33:14

I have great excitement for my daughter as she goes of to college in just a week from now. I am looking forward to “see” what God will do in her life and where he will take her and how she will grow. I am excited for her freedoms and her future.

As her mom, I can honestly admit this is the hardest step of being a mom that I have ever had to take. LETTING GO. I was given a gift, but only for a short time and ultimately, she IS HIS! I am her mom and I always will be, but it’s time to let her go now and keep my focus and trust on the Lord who created her and who will keep and guide her and ME as we both go through this new season together, yet for the first time ever, APART.

It’s funny, she keeps on telling me ” I’m not dying, I’m coming back for Christmas and in the summer”. My response to that is “I am so glad that you are coming back honey, but until you become a mom, you will not understand that it’s a bigger picture than just your leaving and coming back to visit. This is the beginning of the family dynamics changing forever and it will never be the same again.”

So, I am actually very glad that she will be coming back for her visits during her breaks and things will seem “normal” again for a short time. This will help ease me into the transition for her permanent flight from the nest someday.

I really don’t know how I would do this with out the Lord in my life, for that I am most grateful!

I pray that if you have Jesus Christ in your life that you will be blessed and find comfort from this post. If you do not have Jesus in your heart, then I ask you to please leave me a note and I will be more than happy to help you understand how to ask him into your heart and explain to you how much he has helped me in my life and how much he will help you as well.

I hope and pray that this will bless others that are in the same situation out there.

Blessings and hugs to all who read this today :)



My heart is heavy and sad today as I woke up to the news of the shooting of so many innocent people in Aurora, Colorado this morning.

What a tragedy for so many who were going to see a midnight showing of the new Batman movie.

So many thoughts are going around in my head as I am writing this today and I must be careful as not to offend you the reader, but I want to be real and honest here.

First of all, prayers for all the victims and their families.




I am personally not into the whole “Batman” thing or any of those kind of movies. But hey, that’s just me. I know there are a lot of younger people that are, and I’m not pointing fingers here. There are a couple of things that come to mind that bother me about this situation today. Here is one fact. People are bringing, and or allowing there very young children to see more and more movies with So much violence in them. Hum, where do people get the idea to do the crazy things like what happened today?

We don’t know what is behind the shooters problems yet, and I am in no way pointing to this movie as a cause of his actions. It did however make me think about this question, why are we not protecting our young from the things that are not of God and of good moral values? Why are we not waiting until they can handle the issues of violence, immorality, language etc. to expose them to this kind of behavior?  When they are mature enough, then teach them what the Bible and God say about these issues and instruct them how we should and can be different in the world that we live in.

Why oh, Why? There were so many young children at that theater last night. So very sad!

Something else that comes to mind is that there are, and will be a lot of people talking about gun control again. I happen to live in Texas where we have the freedom to carry a concealed weapon and I feel safer here than I did when I lived in a state where guns were very hard to get. People seem to expect that people here are armed and they just don’t mess with others as much because of this (at least out in the country where I am).  A couple of years a go there was an incident of a man who came through town and stopped to get gas one night and he was approached by someone who was going to rob him. The man pulled out his gun and shot the man in self defense and was not charged for this. That may have saved he and his wife’s life.

I have a good friend that said something that rings so true, and I quote “cars have killed more people in the last year than guns have in the last 5 combined (war aside), but I’ve never heard of the banning of cars.”

My point in bringing up gun control is that I believe that there needs to be a good balance of control. What I mean is, I would not want the bad guys to have one that should not , but a responsible citizen who has the right training and would like to be able to defend life and property should be allowed to have one.

Today has been another very sad day in our country with many innocent lives lost and injured and many that will survive and have to live with the trauma of this the rest of their lives.

This brings me to the point of my thought today. Where are you going when you die? Have you asked Jesus Christ to be your savior? If you have then Heaven is your home when you die, if not then unfortunately it won’t be and it is going to be ten billion times worse then anything we have seen here on earth and you will be in hell, ouch!

You know it just seems like things are getting worse and worse in this country and around the world. Take a minute to think about that!

Even though we don’t know when, Jesus IS coming back. ARE YOU READY?

You need to be ready because if you are not, what is happening with this tragedy today and others to come will pale in comparison to your soul if you don’t have Jesus Christ in your heart when you die. TODAY IS THE DAY, people get right with God and have a PERSONAL relationship with the Savior and Creator of your soul.

If anyone reading this has any questions on how to do this please feel free to leave me a comment and I would be honored and blessed to lead you to Jesus.

I pray that I have not offended anybody with this post today, I set out to glorify God with this blog and I pray that is what I have done. I also want to add that I am a very loving and compassionate person. This post may seem harsh, but it’s because I care so much about each one of you that might be reading it and I did’t want to soft sell or sugar coat the truth of the matters that matter the most! 

John 3:16

For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

Be blessed my friends and love each other today and every day. Don’t take today for granted, you just never know what can happen next.

Suzy :)


How many times have you ever said “ I was just in the right place at the right time ?” Do you really think that YOU have anything to do with the timing of the incidences that take place around us all day long? I mean think about all the car crashes that you know you could have been in and you were not. Now, what about all the ones that you don’t even know about, that you could have been in and you were not. Is it a coincidence, perfect timing, or perhaps something more?

I have been thinking about this a lot during this past week because I had something happen where I was in the right place at the right time. I will share my story with you.

But first some history:

My mother-in-law  was here to visit me. Her name is Sallie.  She had a major stroke 18 years ago and had a kidney transplant about the same time. She is on a lot of medications and some of them make her dizzy at times, but it passes. She had some mini strokes about 10 years ago and none since then. Overall her health has been pretty good since all of that and she is a happy and loving woman.

Now to the story:

We were outside sitting on the porch when she came inside to take her medication. I also came in. She was sitting at one end of our long dinning room table and I was at the other. I was looking at my stack of mail and she was going about her business when all of a sudden I heard a strange sound come from her end of the table. I asked her if she was ok. She said she was dizzy and she would be ok. I clearly knew from the look on her face that this was more that just a dizzy spell. She looked upset. But since she is a strong willed lady and had been used to this happening before, I walked back to my end of the table and kept an eye on her. She then proceeded to get up and walk toward me. I met her half way and told her to sit down, that she should not be standing up. At that point she knew what was going on and was trying to make her way over to the couch to be safe. I however did not. She went unconscious in my arms. My father-in-law was alerted by my daughter and he came in and was able to take her from my arms and safely get her to the floor. She was only unconscious for about 2 minutes when she came back and she was her same old self. He did an assessment on her and she did everything she should do. We had called 911 because we did not know how long she would be out. They came and checked on her and she was perfect!

Now, If I would have stayed outside this would have happed and she would have  gotten hurt on a chair, table or wood floor. Coincidence? No Way! God’s Perfect Timing? Absolutely!

I give all the Praise to Him that she is fine and that I was there to protect her from any harm.


“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future”.

I love Sallie so much. She is the “Mom” that God Blessed me with. I Praise the Lord for her and we were able to enjoy the rest of our week long visit together :)


Oh, How I love my Mother-In-Law.

Blessings to you friends,

Suzy :)



If you read my post titled “Mixed Feelings” then you know that I have been praying for my friend with cancer.

Just as I have been all along, I have been in prayer for her and her family, now knowing that her time is coming to an end very fast and she will be with Jesus soon.

This has been on my heart and mind a lot over the past couple of days, as I have contemplated life, death and the wonder of heaven.

The last update that I had gotten from the family was that she was resting fairly well and they were adjusting her meds from the German to U.S. measurements so that she would have just the right dosage rate. That was late on Monday.

I hadn’t received the much appreciated and anticipated CaringBridge update for the day on Tuesday. I went to bed and prayed for her like I often do at that time, not knowing how she was doing for sure. As I slept, I had a dream about my friend it went like this:

 It was very windy outside that day and she was wearing sunglasses when I saw her walking up to the brick school building to give her notice . I hadn’t seen her since High School, (which in life is true) and she recognized me. I walked up to her and gave her a big hug. She was very weak, but she said to me ” I’m preparing, I’m preparing”.

After that I woke up or moved, I don’t remember anything else! (this was last night)

This morning, I told my husband about my dream and he said “maybe she passed away last night” I said “ maybe”. I didn’t think much about it and then I got a text message from CaringBridge about an hour later…..Indeed she had passed away at 2 in the morning.

I told that story to someone today and they told me that God had showed his favor on me by allowing me to have that dream. I think she was right because I am a very compassionate person and I do love to hug people. I only wish that I would have been able to hug my friend. We live too far away from each other and I wasn’t able to do that, but I know that some day I will be able to give her that hug when I get to heaven, because she will already be there waiting for it.

That was such a gift from God today that I wanted to share it with all of you. I hope it blessed you.

My friend was a devout Christian and with every ending post she would post something  that spoke to her from “Jesus Calling”. I had not heard of this before I started reading her posts. I bought the book (devotional) and I am hooked. So as a tribute to her and as a tradition to be carried on, here is a portion of todays message that seems rather fitting:

Rest with me a while. You have journeyed up a steep, rugged path in recent days. The way ahead is shrouded in uncertainty. Look neither behind you nor before you. Instead, focus your attention on Me, your constant Companion. Trust that I will equip you fully for whatever awaits you on your journey.

Genesis 28:15 I am with you and will watch over you whenever you go, and I will bring you back to this land. I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you. 

Rest in peace Laurie


Suzy :)



Wow, so much has happened this year so far. I turned 50 and my daughter is going off to college in a couple of months. For some this would be enough to set a course of emotions with, but for me I am all over the place because I have my son who is turning 10 soon, still to raise.

So, am I a old mom sending her kid to college or an old mom with a young child to raise still? Or am I a young at heart mom with kids who are where they are in life and I am right where I am supposed to be? I don’t know.

I know that I will be strange without my girl at home to sing to me when the songs are on the radio and talk to me about all kinds of things. On the other hand, it will be fun to have that time with my boy to invest in him without the teenage influence there.

Time will tell and I am looking forward with much happiness to my daughters future, to see her mature and grow. To see what God will do in her life and where he will take her. I will look forward to texting, skyping and phone calls, holidays and summers when she comes home. I will look forward to bonding with my son while she is away. I will try to fill my days with things that I like to do and make it a goal to improve on my blogging skills as not to bore you too much :)

Well, more on the college departure later.

Blessings to you,

Suzy :)



Now this is not how I intended to start out my blog, but life happens and I thought that maybe by putting it into words it would help me and hopefully bless others. So here is the story.

I have a friend that I went to grade school with and all the way through high school.  I have been blessed to pray for her this past year.

Sadly I had not had any contact with her until I learned of her stage 4 cancer last May (2011) on Facebook from a mutual friend that we went to school with.

The good news is, I was able to reconnect with her and I was able to find out that she loves the Lord Jesus Christ in a way that is a real testimony to her faith during a trial. I have rarely seen strength and devotion like hers. I only hope that if I ever encounter what she has, that I will be like her in my walk with the Lord and in my testamony!!

She set up a journal on a web site called CaringBridge. As she has traveled this long hard road on every one of the posts, she has posted and claimed her alliance to her Lord and given him the glory and trusted him every step of the way, without fail.

She recently went overseas in hopes of receiving treatments to help her. Unfortunately, this did not happen and she is now back in her own home where she and her family are spending time together as she prepares to meet Jesus.

I have such mixed emotions. I am so glad that she will be able to see Jesus now and not have to wait and see the world as it seems to be getting worse and worse. But at the same time she has 2 daughters who are of marrying age and a loving husband. I am sure that she would have wanted to see her daughters marry and have their babies etc.

But, she gets a new body, no more pain and she will be in the arms of Jesus, praising his wonderful name forever. If I just focus on that thought I am so happy. The hard part is the human losses here!

Sometimes, I just think I want to be in the arms of Jesus too! But for now, I am here and he has a purpose for me. With that I shall move forward and take what I have learned from my friend and pray that I glorify Jesus in all that I do while I am on this earth.

I hope that I have glorified him with this writing and blessed you the reader in some way.

Trust the Lord with all your heart and soul in all you do no matter what is going on in your life! God is Good all the time and He loves you and has a plan for you even if you can’t see it.

Proverbs 3:5-6  Trust in the LORD with all your heart  and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him,  and he will make your paths straight.


Suzy :)


Hi Friends,

I am just in the process of getting going with my website again with much excitement and focus.

I am going to be posting in several different categories depending on my mood and or what is going on at the time.

My hope is that you will find my blog to be a blessing, fun, interesting, and helpful.  I pray it is not a bore, because I think I am boring. I am doing this because I really love to write and I am very interested in the blogging and marketing world on the internet. I am someone who has figured out later in life that I like challenges and I want to challenge myself to see just what I can do with this site and where it will take me.  Please feel free to leave me suggestions and ideas so I can improve and also keep you interested.

Until later, but not too much later,

Thank you and have a blessed and safe day :)