It seems all so clear, like it was only a few days ago ” push, take a deep breath, rest, now push again” Oh, wow, that feeling… I feel her coming.. and THEN… here she is, my first and only natural born child. My baby girl.
I waited so long to have her, I really wanted to have her many years earlier, but God wasn’t ready to let me have her then. Now was the time. So I rejoiced like any new mom. I was on cloud 9, I was in heaven, I was in awe. The gift of bringing a child into the world what a miracle it is, AND I got to do IT, wow, Just look at her. I couldn’t stop..I didn’t sleep at all that first night in the hospital. I couldn’t take my eyes off of her.
Then the years just kept on ticking by, one after the other. I kept on telling her to stop having her birthday’s because I knew that someday she would grow up and go away. Of course, I was not serious with her, but deep inside my self I sure was. I knew each year was coming closer and closer to the time she would some day grow up and fly out of the nest.
It might sound negative, but really, it’s not, we have had so many wonderful years together and I am a blessed Mom. I have been able to spend every day with my daughter teaching her the things that I believe she will need to be a godly woman and a successful wife and mother some day. I was blessed to be able to stay at home with her and invest my time into her life. We are very close and I wouldn’t change a thing.
As I opened up my JESUS CALLING today I know that it was God speaking directly to me and I know that there are no coincidences with Him. This is what it said:
ENTRUST YOUR LOVED ONES TO ME; release them into My protective care. They are much safer with Me than in your clinging hands. If you let a loved one become an idol in your heart, you endanger that one-as well as yourself. Remember the extreme measures I used with Abraham and Isaac. I took Isaac to the very point of death to free Abraham from son worship. Both Abraham and Isaac suffered terribly because of the father’s undisciplined emotions. I detest idolatry, even in the form of parental love.
When you release loved ones to Me, you are free to cling to My hand. As you entrust others into My care, I am free to shower blessings on them. My Presence will go with them whenever they go, and I will give them rest. This same Presence stays with you, as you relax and place your trust in Me. Watch to see what I will do.
Genesis 22:9-12; Ephesians 3:20; Exodus 33:14
I have great excitement for my daughter as she goes of to college in just a week from now. I am looking forward to “see” what God will do in her life and where he will take her and how she will grow. I am excited for her freedoms and her future.
As her mom, I can honestly admit this is the hardest step of being a mom that I have ever had to take. LETTING GO. I was given a gift, but only for a short time and ultimately, she IS HIS! I am her mom and I always will be, but it’s time to let her go now and keep my focus and trust on the Lord who created her and who will keep and guide her and ME as we both go through this new season together, yet for the first time ever, APART.
It’s funny, she keeps on telling me ” I’m not dying, I’m coming back for Christmas and in the summer”. My response to that is “I am so glad that you are coming back honey, but until you become a mom, you will not understand that it’s a bigger picture than just your leaving and coming back to visit. This is the beginning of the family dynamics changing forever and it will never be the same again.”
So, I am actually very glad that she will be coming back for her visits during her breaks and things will seem “normal” again for a short time. This will help ease me into the transition for her permanent flight from the nest someday.
I really don’t know how I would do this with out the Lord in my life, for that I am most grateful!
I pray that if you have Jesus Christ in your life that you will be blessed and find comfort from this post. If you do not have Jesus in your heart, then I ask you to please leave me a note and I will be more than happy to help you understand how to ask him into your heart and explain to you how much he has helped me in my life and how much he will help you as well.
I hope and pray that this will bless others that are in the same situation out there.